Ukrainian Volunteer Corps, Kyiv
I got tired of idle talks already at the time of Maidan. I was there from the first to the last day, but solely as a journalist. Once, at some critical moment of clashes I realized that I won’t remain a mere observer if something like that happened again. And so it did. All of my friends from the Right Sector knew that we would go to war. So did I of course. I went there in late April and it’s only now that I have come back to Kyiv since then. The thing is that I was appointed for the election. But once it is over, I will go straight back there.
I didn’t start fighting at once. We bode our time at the bases waiting for legalization and ammunition. However, our authorities were reluctant to do that, so we had to find weapons by any means possible. It was only in June that we finally got an opportunity to equip a group for a reconnaissance raid That was my first battlefield experience.
Then I took part in battles near Karlovka, Avdeevka, Peski and Saur Mohyla. The only hot point I didn’t go to was the airport. They wouldn’t let me. There has never been any distinction between men and women in the Right Sector. We have very few people and very little ammunition. I have my own weapon and I know how to shoot.
However, my general fitness level is very low, and it is a problem indeed. I am the only person who doesn’t wear a bullet-proof jacket during the battle, as it’s too heavy for me. Running in full ammunition on a par with men is also hard. Yes, I did receive some training, but when you weigh 50 kilos yourself and you are over 20, everything doesn’t come as easy as you want.
Waiting for a battle is far more terrible than the battle itself with all the wounded and killed in action. When I get to know in the evening that we would have a raid in the morning, I get seized with fear. A nasty feeling which keeps me half awake during the whole night. But when you finally set off this fear vanishes in thin air. And after the fight you feel relaxed and satisfied like never before.
It seems to me that I haven’t changed a bit. When I left Donbass, I forgot about the war already in Dnipropetrovsk and loud noises don’t make me shudder.
I guess this is going to be a long war that will last for several years. That’s why I will go back there right after the election. Guerilla war is something that I like and I am good at.